The Chain

Peace if possible, truth at all costs—

— Martin Luther —

Prologue

For over 30 years, I battled a low-grade but persistent struggle with pornography.

This was true, even though I was a devout Christian in full time pastoral ministry.

Then God allowed me to see a truth from the Bible that enabled me to be set free from that bondage.

I wrote this story out of deep gratitude for the change in my life.

This is my story.

the chain

The Chain

I see something…. I can just make it out…

It seems to be a pit…

Yes, there is a shallow pit with slippery sloping sides. In the bottom of the pit there is a pool of… Oh, it’s a pit of putrid filth. On one side of the pit, I see something else… I see a dark and evil creature, and it is holding a strong chain.

I look and see that the chain extends down into the pit where I now see another creature… no—wait—it’s a man! Or at least, what used to be a man… but he’s not moving.

Looking closer, I notice that the chain is actually attached to the man, or rather to a collar that the man is wearing. The chain is hanging limp, and the man is not moving…. face down in the filth.

I look back at the dark creature and see that it is watching the man… and smiling a wicked smile… its eyes never leaving its captive who is motionless in the pit.

As I look at the creature, I notice that the chain has begun to move. I return my gaze to the man in the pit. To my surprise, he is attempting to get up! The chain is too long to hold him in the pit. Slowly, he begins to rise out of the mire.

The man is covered in the filth but still he’s laboring to his knees. To my surprise, he begins to weep! I steal a glance at the creature and it is no longer smiling… and I can see it nervously handling the chain, as if preparing to take up the slack…

I look back at the man. Still on his knees, he turns his face to the distant Light on the opposite side of the pit. Suddenly he summons all his courage and strength and an anguished cry erupts from deep within his being. He keeps his face steadfast towards the Light, and cries out again… stronger this time.

Now I hear another sound—a scream—coming instead from the creature. I turn to see that it has now dropped the chain and is using both hands to cover its ears so as not to be pained by the cries of the man!

Once more the man cries out towards the Light. Once again, his voice is stronger. As he cries, he begins to stand up. I find myself cheering for the man as I watch!

Then, to my amazement, a burst of Light emanates from the distance and engulfs the man. Miraculously, the filth from the pit completely melts off his body and clothes! Although he was covered in it just a moment ago, now he stands up and I see that his clothes are pure white! No trace of the filth can be seen anywhere on him! … and the tears in his eyes have been wiped away.

The man notices his clean clothes and is emboldened by what he sees! He begins to move towards the far slope of the pit… his face toward the Light and his jaw set.

He makes steady progress up the slope of the pit. I can hardly contain my joy! He is almost out!

But wait…

Oh, no…

The chain…

It is still attached to the man’s collar!

And as he makes his way up the slope, the slack in the chain is being taken up!

I had momentarily forgotten about the wicked little creature who was holding the other end of the chain. I look back at it and see its eyes blazing with anger, its hands desperately grasping the chain, little by little taking in the slack. My eyes follow the chain, now nearly taut, back to the man.

The chain is beginning to slow the man’s progress as he climbs up the slope of the pit. One of his feet slips and he quickly puts a hand down to prevent his fall. I watch as he continues to struggle to get out of the pit against the pull of the chain.

I notice that, to my surprise, the small creature is not strong enough to pull the man back into the pit! But its intermittent yanking on the chain has the effect of throwing the man off balance, causing him to halt his progress and stop his fall.

For a time, the man makes little or no progress due to the clever timing of the creature’s pulling on the chain.

I can sense the man’s frustration with the chain. Suddenly he whirls around to face his tormentor. I see rage in his eyes as he tries in vain to pull the chain from the creature’s hands. Failing that, he grabs the chain with both hands and summons all his strength in an attempt to pull the chain free of his collar. Again, to no avail.

Finally, with a cry of hopeless frustration, he grabs a length of the chain and brings it down in a powerful stroke against his uplifted knee.

The creature was waiting for this moment.

The man is standing on one foot on the slippery slope of the pit… his attention on the chain…

A cruelly timed tug…

A startled look…

A cry of fear and agony…

A tumultuous flailing of arms and legs…

A painful fall…

A slippery slope…

the awful sound of a heavy splash…

and then … stillness.

Silence.

Silence…

except …

except for a quiet and evil chuckle.

I turn back toward the creature. Once again, it is staring intently at the man. Smiling again. That wicked smile.

I can’t bear to look at the creature any longer, so I turn back to the man, wondering if he would… or could…

My heart leaps as I watch him begin to stir! Will he get up again?

Then, he rises to his knees and begins to weep. I am thrilled! I hear him cry out to the Light again. I watch him get up. I see the burst of Light and rejoice to see the filth again melt off his body. Once again, I watch him take steps toward the sloping edge of the pit. I watch him take step after step up the side. I watch him… I watch…

I watch the chain draw taut…

I watch the man fight against it…

And then I watch him fall.

Again.

How many times has this happened before? Will it happen again? The scene is horrifying. Has he no hope? It is more than I can bear.

But then, I hear another sound!

A voice… the voice of another man!

It is coming from close by, where another man stands at the edge of his own pit… straining at his own chain. I wonder why I had not seen him there before!

“Brother!” he calls out… “Brother! Get up! You can do it!!”

The second man is also dressed in clean white clothes. And his attention is on the first man, trying to encourage him to get up again.

In time the man in the filth once again rises up and finds the strength to stand and try again, but this time spurred on by the constant encouragement of the second man.

“Don’t fight the chain!” he says. “Just keep your eyes on the Light in the distance. That’s where your strength is found! And stay to the ends of the pit where the slope is not as slippery.”

“Thank you,” the man replies. Then, taking his advice, he finds that he really can stand more firmly there, in spite of the little creature’s incessant yanking on the chain. He tries hard to ignore the creature’s efforts, looking instead to the Light.

“The Light is really beautiful if I can just keep standing my ground here where I can see it,” he tells his new friend.

“Yes, I know” says the second man. “With the strength I’ve received from the Light, I’ve been able to keep out of the pit for eight months now.”

“Wow. That’s great. I hope I can last that long.” He replies wistfully.

Then, without warning, the second man looks away from Light for just a moment. There is an immediate tug on his chain, a sudden flailing of arms and an all too familiar fall and splash in the next pit.

The first man gasps in horror as he watches his friend disappear into the pit of filth.

Full of fear the man waits, hoping that his friend will find his way back out of the filth. He calls to him, shouting the words of encouragement that he himself had heard only a short time ago.

In time, to his great relief, his friend stumbles up and out of his pit and once again stands gazing at the Light to renew his strength.

“I’m glad you’re back.” the man tells his friend.

“Yeah… Thanks. I’m really sorry, but it still happens to me, I’m afraid.” he replies, his voice betraying a deeper sadness than before.

They neither speak for a time… each one silently and stoically resisting the continual tugging on their chains.

“Friend,” the first man presently says… a question hung in his throat. “I am wondering…”

Silence.

“Yes?” his friend finally speaks.

“Can we ever be free of these chains?”

At this question, both of the creatures begin to make a great ruckus and start pulling on their respective chains harder and faster. “NO!!” they cry! “You can never get rid of the chain!” one says. “The chain is mine and you can never break it!” cries the other.

It is all the two men can do to continue maintaining their balance against the sudden increase in activity from the creatures.

“I’m afraid they’re right,” the second man finally says when he had reestablished his footing and braced himself against the chain’s pull. “I’ve been at this for 38 years, and there’s no way to break this chain.”

The creatures settle down.

The first man sighs and relaxes just a little, thankful for the reprieve from the tugging. “That’s what I was afraid of,” he says finally. “I just wish….”

“You wish you could be free of the chain, right?”

The voice didn’t come from the second man. Both of the men look around to see who had spoken to them.

Then they see a third man. He, too, is dressed in white. But he is not standing in the sloping edge of a pit as they are. There is no chain anywhere to be seen. He looks at them with peace and compassion.

“You can be free of the chain.”

The two creatures resume their clamoring and it rises to an even greater fevered pitch than before.

“No, you can’t! ” The second man declares. “It’s not possible. You’re just hiding your chain!”

“Wait, I want to hear this!” the first man shouts over the din coming from behind them.

“He doesn’t know what he’s talking about!” the second man objects. “It’s unrealistic, what he’s suggesting. Just keep your eyes on the Light and you’ll have the strength you need to stand your ground!”

“Listen to your friend!” the creatures yell. “He’s the one who helped you! You don’t even know who that other guy is!!”

The first man looks back at the creature holding his chain, and very nearly loses his balance.

“Just take off the collar.” The third man can scarcely be heard.

“What did you say?”

“Take off the collar!”

“It’ll never come off!” screams one of the creatures. “That collar is part of you!” cries the other.

“But how?” the first man asks.

“Don’t listen to him!” The second man warns. “He’s deluding himself and he’s trying to delude you! Looking toward the Light is your only hope!” This elicits a chorus of agreement from the creatures.

“Just unbuckle it.”

“Like this?”

“Yes. like that. It’s not really part of you.”

Then… astoundingly, the man’s chain falls to the ground behind him, the collar still attached. It takes a moment, but then he realizes that he really is free.

He takes the final two steps out of his pit, then embraces the man who had shown him the way. Together, they begin to walk toward the Light.

“Wait,” the first man stops in his tracks, “what about my friend? He still has his collar on…”

“I know.” the third man says. “But he has found that he truly can stay out of the filth. And he’s right about the Light. It really does give him strength to resist the chain’s pull. But no one can force anyone to take off his collar. You can only remove your own collar. If someone still believes that the collar is a permanent part of who they are, they will never even try to remove it.”

“But if they don’t, they’ll never know true freedom!”

“That is true. But he has heard the truth. We can only hope that in time he will reconsider his response to it. Come with me. Let’s continue walking toward the Light. Along the way, perhaps we will find others who will hear the truth and embrace it as we did.

“The Light has revealed to us the secret of freedom. He said ‘you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’ And ‘If the Light sets you free, you will be free indeed.’ That is the message we must share.”

With some sadness, yet with their own hearts free, the two men turn towards the Light and begin walking again.

Then from behind them…

“Hey, guys!!! Wait up!”

A moment later, all three men embrace, then walk on together…

…toward the Light.

© 2006 by David Martin

24 COMMENTS

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Klaas Klooster

May I have permission to use this story in a book I am writing to help men be freed from the power of porn? Or would you simply prefer that I put a link to your website?

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Travis Roske

This is Incredible. Thank you, so much.

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    Ruth

    such a truth that catch us not when we are aslepp but alive. Thank you for this truth which is happening every second to millions of souls

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Pedro

I know your website for a long time already… Every time I read this article, this website, I know it reflects the truth.
I will not give up. I will keep studying and dedicate my life to the truth, cause likewise our father the creator, it is our only hope.
Please pray for me, and my future wife, that I love so very deeply.
All my love and gratitude to you.
Peace of God

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Joseph Kollie

This is so powerful and encouraging! Thanks so much. May we keep our focus on the Light without looking left or right. Amen!

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Ron Laughlin

This is a story well told. With our focus on the light we can experience victory in a continuing battle. Beyond that we can become a new creation where the battle is over and the victory complete.

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Christopher Benner

This is a great story, and it is so true. When looking at the light I can stand if only briefly, but anytime I take my eyes off the light, or worse: ignore the light then I immediately fall back into the pit of filth.

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    David Martin

    Thanks, Christopher.

    Keep in mind, however, that the point of the story is that even those bravely keeping their eyes on the “Light” for strength remain chained to the pit… they are not yet truly free.

    The freedom we speak of at MCAG is a man without a chain.

    I hope you’ll read all of the articles… You’ll see what I mean.

    David

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      Joe

      I would make one change to the story. As the man is climbing out, he pulls himself up by grasping each link of the chain until he is at the demon’s hand. Chains have links and addiction to pornography is not a mystery once we understand the links and in understanding the links then the links have no power. We have a new father, a new parent and understanding Him is everything.

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        keshit

        God!! I want this

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keshit

Please, was this from a dream

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    David Martin

    Hi, Keshit.

    No, it wasn’t a dream… More like something I experienced when I tried to share with others what happened to me.

    There are a lot of people like the second man, who is so committed to the old failed ways of fighting the battle. On one website forum dedicated to helping men overcome pornography, I was reprimanded for even suggesting that freedom could happen quickly and permanently. The guy was angry at me for offering a “false” hope.

    The great news is, however, that this hope is not false!

    I wrote the story to relate what I was feeling about being set free.

    If you have not already done so, I recommend that you read the annotated version of the story. The link is on the navigation menu.

    David Martin

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Mark Beverly

Thanks for a realistic view of sin and the truth found only in Jesus Christ our Creator and Savior, the Light of the world!!!

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Brasio Kawere kigongo

A parable so divine. I feel a deep tenderness for my saviour who is so quick to cleanse us. And this is well evident in this parable. I trust that there is power in overcoming the sin of pornography more in focusing on the saviour( who is the light to us all) than in struggling with the habit through other means though these may bring mild relief. My soul delights in your much emphasis on the saviour and his good tidings in this remedy to the fallen culture. Thank you men of God for this great errand. Pastor David Hatton shared this link in an email and am greatful for the prophylactic message here I have found.

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    David Martin

    Thank you for your comments, Brasio.

    We do focus on our Savior to find the cleansing we need. But the freedom from habitual sin takes more than just a mental focus on Jesus. It also requires that we reject the lie that be believe that’s keeping us bound to that sinful behavior. Identifying the LIE and replacing it with the TRUTH is what MCAG is all about.

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Mark Peters

Thank you. 🙂

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    David Martin

    You’re welcome, Mark. Spread the word.

    And keep in mind… there is ZERO monetization of this site… we don’t even offer a “donation” link. Just spread the word…

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Daniel Gauerke

Wow…….i truly feel like this just changed my outlook on life.

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    David Martin

    That’s great to hear, Daniel.

    If we can help you or answer any questions along the way, please let us know.

    David Martin

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Đorđe Grbović

Thank you very much for posting this. I feel like this is more than just a story, I can feel that there will be truth to this. Thank you.

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Michael

Hi! I’m just a 16 years old guy so I really feel blessed, honored and grateful to have found this website, I will never forget such an amazing story that is why I would like to save this story on my notes (so I hope you let me, I will of course put your name and this site right after the story) , this is the first article/story I have read in this site and I have no plans to stop, I really struggle a lot with anime porn addiction and I masturbated just a little while ago (hours ago), that is why I want to learn the truth and I believe that the truth will set me free. I want to thank the Lord God for giving me this opportunity and I want to thank you all for making this happen, (creating this website etc etc.) After this vacation and quarantine, I will surely share this to those who are willing and in need of help, but the choice will depend upon them if they want to believe or not, hopefully some or maybe all of them will, I mean who knows? Again, thank you very much and God bless!

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kcooper210

That was an amazing story and a rare one. I would imagine that it was fictitious and not actual. But it is rare and inspiring nonetheless. It is good to read something like this in an age where the culture encourages, lies to, and enslaved men’s minds. Although it is ironic that the church has bought into this lie as well it is good to know that in this age of stereotypical cultural conditioning, encouraged cultural visual sexual arousal there is a glimmer of hope as an antidote to these mental poisons.
Keith Cooper

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Doug

I’ve been watching porn for 30+ years and still do. I’ve tried to remove the chain in so many ways but have not been successful. I’ll keep my eye on the light for days, weeks months then I’ll fall back into the pit. Right now I feel it’s hopeless. This story real made me think that there could be a way to break the chain. I have a long ways to go. I’m going to read all of the articles to see if it is even possible. You know where I’m at. I don’t know how I came across this article. IT GIVES ME HOPE.

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    Ruth

    one thing i know is never to keep blaming self but rather to see the greater need behind our actions in order to address the need

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